Of course, I'm sleepy & sluggish again today. But I do have something to look forward to. I think I am going to ask my boss to let me skip out early. I just don't have much to do. If I get up to SF early, I could have dinner with the visiting girls before the play this evening. Sucks that my friend flaked on me last night. Now I'll have to drive back home tonight and back to up to SF tomorrow morning in time to catch the tour bus at 9 am. I am a little worried about that. I'm gonna have to leave so early! Cuz it would totally suck to get stuck in traffic. Melissa Ferrick show in the evening. Then back home again. Working Friday, then back up to SF for dinner & dancing. Back home again that same night. Just to turn around and head back up on Saturday to show the girls around town more. Wow, guess I'm gonna have to come home again Sat evening, shit. Sat, night I can stay over with them at least. I'll be home in plenty of time Sunday morning. So much driving, in such little time. And gas prices are so high too.

I need to stop being quite so lethargic. Take the time to think & plan. Figure out what I want to do. Pursue school fulltime or continue working. I wonder for how long I could pull off just taking classes and not really working. How would that go over? Could I maintain my motivation and make it through? How long financially could I hold out working fulltime? Does that mean I'd have to continue on at home? Can't move to SF for even longer? I don't know what my priority here is. Just change and soon. I'm getting stagnant in my job now. It's mind-numbing and draining. I crave change.

Of course, I didn't get the changes I wanted. I mean what's changed so far hasn't been anything I planned. Some good; some bad; some just unexpected. But sometimes, I think that's just life. Others, I wonder what I did to make this all come abt. Bah. Can't even think to type this anymore.