I have been so busy this week at work. Things do 180 all the time. Last week was slow, I remember, most of us barely working. I don’t know what has made the difference this week. I don’t really even have the time to be writing this blog, but you know what, sometimes even I get to take a break. I’m even entitled to spend it however I’d like to. If I had more time I might go into how my weekend was, well since the last post. I did make it to the park to read for a couple hours. That was nice and relaxing. So much so it made me lazy for the rest of the evening and I didn’t join my friends at the Café Saturday night. Sunday I was again feeling the itch to be outside. So I called M2 first. She said she was abt to call me to ask if I wanted to go to Santa Cruz with them. I assumed Santa Cruz = beach. I didn’t find out until they were coming to pick me up, they wanted to go to Santa Cruz Pride. It wasn’t bad, but it just wasn’t what I was in the mood for. The Pride festivities themselves were quite small at a small park. More was happening at the Dakota, but it was just so dark and crowded inside. I just wasn’t feeling it. I didn’t want to complain, nor did I wanna be fake abt it. So I’m just that it just made me more distant. I’m coming down to the nitty-gitty on the gym. Pamela is pushing for results. And this late in the game, I’m not really feeling it. Sure I want results, but if I haven’t gotten them in the first 6 months or 50 sessions, why is the last hard month going to convince me to buy more. No, I’m not gonna totally give up on working out at the gym. But I doubt I am going to continue to pay someone to torture me at it. It’s hard and it’s not something that says with me all day. I guess I’m supposed to be stretching every day, but I rarely think of it and never when I can actually be doing it. Cardio 5 times a week seems excessive and very hard to actually do, when trying to maintain my social life as well. I want to make a change but not to the extent I can’t do anything else that I consider fun. Whether that is hanging out with friends, drinking or eating ice cream. I don’t see that it’s an even exchange. Monday we worked on legs, so tell me why is it my back & shoulders that are sore still?